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about
My debut single, recorded during lockdown 2020, and released to you now!
This is a song about figuring out who you are, kicking addictions and fighting demons. It means a tremendous amount to me - I hope you love it as much as I do!
Lana x
lyrics
I keep waking up in last night's makeup, trying to piece it all back together
I get blackout drunk to bury the hurt, of wishing I was her.
I can feel hair growing on my chest, it belongs to someone that I detest
I can't look at myself, I can't touch my skin, and I can't let anyone in
I wanna kill myself, but still stay alive
So I'll become someone else tonight
I know these things, they take time
So here I am, on the borderline
Yeah, on the borderline
Go to bed as it's getting light, cause I've been being her all night
She's so close to the surface, waiting to get out
She's breaking down my walls and screaming out
I know that I need her, but I wish I'd never met her, she's killing me softly but making me better
I know her face, I know her name, she's in my mind and knows my shame
I wanna kill myself but still stay alive
So I'll become someone else tonight
I know these things, they take time
So here I am, on the borderline (x2)
Yeah, on the borderline
I wish that I could tell someone about how I feel
But I'm scared that if i do this will become oh, so real
So I keep it inside, my pain internalised
And I don't know if she'll ever see the light
I wanna kill myself but still stay alive
So I'll become someone else tonight
I know these things, they take time
So here I am, on the borderline (x2)
Yeah, on the borderline
credits
released August 27, 2021
Vocals & Guitars - Lana Wild
Bass Guitar - Billy Robertson (Disposable)
Drums - Marc Zwetsloot (Glass City)
Recorded & Produced by Mark Morrow Audio.
Artwork by @vincentvangoth__
Mel is so incredibly talented and making some of the best indie pop rock in music right now. This is an album that’ll reveal something new every time you listen to it. Simply a must-listen from an awesome artist. giventofly87
Mel's music takes on hardship and doubt from a perspective of unwavering self-love and affirmation. she writes to a particular queer experience, and in doing so evokes feelings of otherness, change, and hope that resonate in much wider ways. these are three of my favorites ordinarymothman
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